Should I only call you for a reason ??

If I should only call you
When I have a reason
Then, isn’t it a reason ,I call for
When I wish to hear from you.
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
When I wish to hear your voice.
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
When I wish to talk to you
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
To tell you, I remember you
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
When I wish you to remember me
Isn’t it a reason, I call you
When I miss you
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
When I wish to share my thoughts
With you, thinking you will not
Think, how weird my thoughts are
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
When I feel sharing my happiness
Thinking you will also be
As happy as I am
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
To make you remember
Not to forget me
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
When I want a bunch
Of advice, thinking you
Could give me the best ones.
Isn’t it a reason, I call you
When I feel, I need a shoulder
For crying ,thinking it’s the most
Comfortable one ever .
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
When I feel telling all the happenings
Of my life , may be it’s just about
An ice-cream I had that evening.
Isn’t it a reason, I call you
To make a quarrel , telling
You have completely forgotten me
Even my name.
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
When I need a help, knowing
Who will never say ‘No’ to it.
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
When I am in trouble and
I feel you are perfect one
Who will take it the correct way
And solve it for me.
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
When I wish to hear you sing
Isn’t it a reason, I call for
When I just feel to know
You are there, always there, Just
one call,I need to make, to reach you
When all these are big big reasons
For me to call you , why should I
Think, I need a bigger reason
To call you ??

The Fear in me

The love for you in me

Tells me to leave you free

Advice me to let you decide

Demands me to get it done.

But the fear in me , that

You will never be mine

Gets hold of my mind

When I decide to leave you free.

The fear in me tells me

If I let you now, then

I Loose you now ,which

Turns my mind up side down.

The fear in me triumphs

which in turn turns out to be

A struggling stage

In which both of us fight,

You for your freedom

And I for you

I love you, for which

I cant see you sad

I may think of leaving you, again

Though it may hurt me hard

Deep in heart leaving me in grief

And I wont be happy

With my decision ,but

One thing , of which I will

Be happy about , I made

You happy again, by

Letting you do what you want to.

I know , I can keep hold

Of you for a while, but

Not so long, as you are not

So far away from the destiny.

I can feel the change, which

Itself is not bearable for me

I don’t know how I will

Pass that time, but one thing,

I know, Which is, I don’t want

To see You sad at all.

I know, it’s just only my fear

Which makes me think so.

I know , I have known you

And you have known me

Long before the fear

Ever was even born.

I know now that, I need to act

Before it triumphs over me.

I need to kill it, before

It kills the love in me.

I know this is a duel

Between me and you , Mr. Fear.

You think ,standing behind some one

Keeps you safe ? you feel ,

You are safe behind love

You think to deal with you

I will have to deal with love first?

Thinking that it will be a

Hard step for me

To fight against my love

Where I will panic.

Then, I must thank you

For bringing love between us

Close to me once again , for whom

I was fighting,. You forgot

Love is more powerful than you

And when you where

In between us , it was then

The whole problem was.

Thank you for opening my eyes

I see only love now,

not you any more.

I am back where I was

Long ago, I am where

I have yearn to be in.

I am back, where me and

Love exist, but not the very you.

RR again . . .

ME: അതെ കേട്ടിട്ടില്ലേ, കറുപ്പിന് എഴാഴ്കനെന്നു??

RR: അതെ കറുപ്പിന് എഴാഴ്കാന്, പക്ഷെ ബാക്കി തോന്ണ്‌ുടിമൂന്നു വെളുപ്പിനാ , മറക്കണ്ട

My Love

My Dear Mr. Love,

I couldn't tell you How much I Love You, because I always feared You will fall in Love with me for the reason that I love you. Because You are such a wonderful Man I could ever dream about. Meeting you was something which was 100 times perfect than the most wonderful dreams I ever had. I have always felt the warmness of your care around me and your heart wishing me the very best of life every another second. I know what you feel about me and I admire the feeling.

Now its quite natural that you may ask, why am I talking about How much I Love you, now ?? Just as simple as Love is.. I wanted to tell You today that *

I Love you for what you are

I Love you for what you are to me

I Love you for what you are not to me

I Love you

Let me express My Love for you with a poem below . . .

You are not the air that I breathe,

you are the sweet scent that drifts upon it

you are not the sounds that I hear,

you are the music of my life

You are not the food that I need,

you are the nourishment of my soul

You are not my will to survive,

you are my reason for living

It is with you that I experience

the wonders of the world

It is with you that I triumph

over the challenges in my path

It is your partnership that will lead me

to the fulfillment of my dreams

It is your friendship that guides me

as I grow and learn

It is your patience and wisdom

that calms my restless nature

It is through you that I know my true self

I do not take you for granted,

I cherish you

I do not need you

I choose you

I choose you today in witness

of all the people who love us

I choose you tomorrow

in the privacy of our hearts

I choose you in strength and weakness

I choose you in health and sickness

I choose you in joy and sorrow

I will choose you, over all others, every day

for all the days of my life

Only for you

With Love

Me

Happy Valentine Day

PS : As I am not that good in impressing I copied the poem from another site, I know you are smarter than me ,so you may figure that out . . . I don't want to make a bad impression either, so not lying that its my creation :D

PS1:** may be I feel I will never ever get another chance to do so

When Cupid Misses III

9^th February 2009 , Monday

9.10 AM ,Office

RR: Good Morning Chitra

Me : Good Morning

RR: You know a lot of things happened on Friday, When you said Happy Journey that day I never expected it to be this much wonderful.

Me: Why ? what happened ?

RR:That day 6^th February 2009 , Friday

5.00 Pm ,Office

Me: Bye, Chitra .

Chitra: Bye, Happy Journey :)

5.25 Pm, Railway Station

Malabar Express already came, I ran and ran and some how got into the train. There was no seat in the compartment I entered. It was Friday ,weekend rush was there. I noticed, there where other people giving me company standing. I was wandering to and fro in the compartment , then a guy who was sitting near window stood up and left, seeing that I jumped into the seat. So I got a seat, meanwhile the train reached kollam. Next to me was a guy and next to him was an old man. After some time the guy near me left. Seeing the seat a girl rushed towards it. I guess the old man didn’t like that , He moved towards me killing all my expectations and making me depressed , The girl sat next to him. I was sad, thinking about what all I have imagined to ask her, various topics I had with me to discuss with her, every thing now stood nowhere with out an end. The next stop arrived and the old man too left with no one else between us. I cheered up once again. My wishes budded again .

Now came another villain, A guy who was sitting opposite to us, kept his legs in the middle of our seat.

I didn’t wait for anything else, I started the talk.

In Techno park ??

She said “Yes”

Me : Which company ??

She: TSU

Soon our talks caught up with the speed of the train.

By then I had a lot of information about her, from her. She was BTech 2007 pass out and working as HR even more .

I told her that I am also placed in TSU, Is there any scope that they may call 2008 batch. She said “They haven’t yet completely called 2007 batch, So the scope is almost zero.”

Then I asked her some thing foolish. I asked her what was her offer. The compartment became silent at once. After a while she replied back. Those are matters not to be disclosed. I was embarrassed to an extend that I felt what on earth made me ask that question . I couldn’t hide my face as it turned red. The silences continued for while more .Some how I managed to stand the situation, as an justification I added “hmmm, I just asked it to compare with my offer “.

I was becoming more and more interested in her, I asked her where do she stay , why she is working as an HR ( I didn’t like when she said “ I am not that technical person”, because it remained me of you ) and I got answers for all my questions even she told me what was her payment to my relief.

That one and half hours how soon the time went ,I have no idea now. She was Roman Catholic , nice family base, but the only problem which came up was ‘she is 2007 pass out , what if she is elder that me ?? ‘.

Finally kottayam reached and she prepared to leave , right then I remembered something

Hey what is your name ??

Sara ( with a smile )

So that was a most wonderful day ... isn't it ??

Me: Was the girl married ??

RR: Oops.. I forgot to ask that :|

Chennai – A city full of ‘Perfect’ people

We started on Friday evening from Trivandrum and by Saturday morning 11 am we reached Chennai .

Once We reached there . . .

“Oh My God! Chitra, You where a small child who hold my little finger when I last saw you , now you have grown up… wow! You look beautiful “ Said one Uncle to me

“ Brother, I want Chitra to get married with in 6 months “ he told my father

“Chitra! You look great ,have put on weights , hmm but you look more sweet and chubby now” a cousin told me

“Chitra, You have become fat (gundu)” :(

“Next is Chitra’s , isn’t it Chitra? With in 3 months right ?” another uncle asked

“Chitra, Just tell me you are ready, I have 7 guys ready in hand.7 lucky number . isn’t it??.” Said another Uncle

“I want you to get married next month itself.. What say ??” Another Uncle

Hearing this my younger cousins also started .. yeah. Next is your Next is yours, when will be it,, next month, who will be that lucky guy.. and so on

“Hey ! keep your wedding on vacation ok !, I will choose your groom, we will choose your costumes, we will choose your make up and everything”, Lekshmi said to me (Lekshmi is First Uncle’s daughter who is now studying in 8^th std)

Beep . . . .Beep. . . . Beep. . . . A Heart detected !!!

Doctor Uncles ” Your prescribed medicine isn’t working in my blood right now”

6 months back when I visited Chennai , I came across a ‘perfect’ family .This time too that part didn’t had any change other than a small one . I got to meet more than one ‘perfect’ families. So if this goes on like this every time I go to Chennai I get to meet ‘perfect’ people, ‘perfect’ families, I don’t know where will it reach. The one great problem with this ‘perfect’ people are all others are imperfect except them which make the situation worse .But this ‘perfect’ people are too good, they want to make this world a ‘perfect’ one.. so they try telling out the sort of imperfections in others so that they can correct them self .(Remember ! the situation is becoming worse, all are ‘perfect’ people and they think others should change, But how did they manage to compromise in the same slogan ‘others need to change’ , which I don’t understand yet )

I fear , how may more ‘perfect’ people or families I will have to come across.. The only possible way which came up in my shallow mind is I must stop going to Chennai for a while, at least until till I could take up the next :D

( my dear readers , I am telling you about these ‘perfects’ only on behalf of very small number of people I get to meet there, in Chennai ,Sorry! If my knowledge is wrong )

To do shopping with my mum is really a tough task , indeed I enjoyed it this time , and I felt “ I want to spent more time out shopping, just a sack full of money and more time would have made me buy more .

One wish : I want to spent 3 months of my active, energetic time in Chennai

My purpose of visit to Chennai was my cousin’s wedding

Allow me to take you the wedding place

Just enough crowded with close friends and relatives, bride and groom are chanting some vedic mantras along with the bride’s father which instructed to them my priest.

Now its time for the wedding

The priest : “ In this world we all know there are two grahnams (eclipse ), Surya grahnam (solar eclipse )and Chandra grahanam( lunar eclipse ), But No , there are three grahanam , the third one is pani grahanam (accept the bride’s hand in marriage).

The two above said grahanams, surya and Chandra just last with us for 2 ½ hours with us after that they leave us, But pani grahanam doesn’t leave you once it holds your hand. It last as long as you live. From now you must earn and allow her to spent ,

Now , Hold her hands “

Poor groom had no other choice, he made “couldn’t you tell about this before “ face to the priest .

The bride’s mother, uncle and even mother in law where crying after the marriage. My father got stuck with it. He was made to think by the bride’s mother in law, “ why should the mother in law cry ??“.. and finally he concluded may be because she thought about she losing all her power over her son.

Food was indeed good and different , the night before wedding they had chat stalls, kulfi , fruits stalls, sandwich stalls and even more on the following day .

So that’s the marriage update

My wishes to the Bride and Groom :

To the Bride: All the best!!! Let God make you remember all the possible and non possible things you want to accomplish in this birth .

To the Groom : All the best!!! Let God may give you power, patience and energy to full fill all her wishes

We returned back after the function was over :)

PS: This time I had plans to write travelers note, But I couldn’t as most of the time I was busy sleeping .