Beware ! Its ME here

Police recognized me and let me off with a warning that I should not blog again..But unfortunately I was born with the nature to do or try what I am not supposed to do. My blog is also an after effect of my trying (:P) in spite of the warning I got from the readers who went through the page with out even a warning.

So now I thot of writing a warning message for all those get to see this wonderful page.

solemnly promising you that,this page will never reach up to any writing standard and will be full of junk materials.So I warn U:-Unknowingly if you have come to this page,"Close this window now",else U will feel too bad that you didn't , later on. OR else, if you dicide to proceed I am NO one to stop u, But then it is at your own risk !!!

Friday, February 29, 2008

I hate all those who die....

There was no such need of a major operation which was done to extend the life span to 25 years.The doctors saying that "The operation was a success, but Sorry! the patient died". so the post operation problem was blamed for the the death of the person.

How ever, in short, i lost my chitti ( mum's younger sister) for no reason.she was the one next to mum to whom much family gossips were shared by me( where i have been given privilege to talk my opinion as a major).she was the one whom i complain ,if she didn't come to see us, every week. she was one who i had regular appointments in all my holidays to go with her to hospitals. Some times to give her company , some time as a by-stander ,but this time i couldn't go with her and its unbelievable how one can leave all behind with out even a hind. It was on 2nd Feb i last saw of her and had a time with her , on her last birthday. I took pooja prasadhams from temples near my home to give her as it was her birthday .

she was admitted in medical college trivandrum on 4th Feb for a valve replacement operation ,first the operation was planed in summer vacation as mum is also free ,but later the doctors told its wise to do the operation now it self and she got admitted . they are saying the operation was success and she was taken room ..but two days back she was again shifted to ICU again .Reports were updated like .she is serious ..she is very serious.. she is recovering ....she is again serious ...and at last, yesterday 8.30 pm the last report came as "she is gone"

Gone for ever !!! leaving all us behind ,she went for a journey where there is NO coming back. She didn't think anything leaving us. May be she also will miss us ,but when i saw her today it was like she smiling at all of us ,as she is a free bird now.

Now i feel there was no need of such a operation which didn't even spare her life , at least she would be with us much years ( may not be 25 years) with out the operation . Now, she will never come to my home, i can't complain her or ask her why didn't she, she wont cal me to go with her to hospitals, she wont cal me to make me remember my "shasti",she wont cal me to go with her to temples, she wont ask me to join her Life insurance policy,she wont ask me to study properly, she wont cal me to deliver some packets. she wont cal me to stay there.She just went with out even giving a hind, how can one do like this.. wasn't a fare play..

I really hate all those who die....

Monday, February 25, 2008

Realization !!!

I hate me when i expect
I hate me when i quarrel(i hate quarreling; i never start; but make the other start:P)
I hate me when i fire some one ( thing is that i will need to ask sorry for some thing which mayn't be my mistake )
I hate me when i shout
I hate me when others make me pursue them
I hate me when i am left alone with out any work( studies aren't counted )
I hate me when i hurt some one's feeling ( very rare one, may be ;i am not aware of that)
I hate me when i cut the call abruptly
I hate me when i am angry
I hate me when i am given a work with " do it for me " title
I hate me when i cry
I hate me when some one makes me feel i am too silly

I like me when mum shout at me( feels her care)
I like me when appa looks at me with no hope :)
I like me when i wake up late and run to catch my bus
I like me when i stand outside the class telling stupid reasons to get inside and an attendance last min
I like me when i sit in the last bench and disturb the whole class
I like me when i am called out to sit in the first bench
I like me when i am allowed to talk freely
I like me when all tel me that they are been killed by my killer jokes
I like me when i am allowed freak around the city till 8 at night
I like me when i ask stupid questions ( which come out with out my knowledge) and when i get awesome explanations for that
I like me when i make a company
I like me when i watch movie and cry
I like me the way i write my exams
I like me when i don't feel sad thinking of the pass things
I like me when i am alone
I like me when i am in a crowd making all them cry with my pjs
I like me when some one makes fun of me
I like me when i am made hear all the lectures by my younger sister
I like me when some one feels me stupid( can be true:P)
I like me when some one feels me good
I like me when i talk at home as whole family expenditure is met my me
I like me when some one comes to me for advices( i make the thing worser )
I like me when some one comes to me for consolation
I like me when i analysis problems
I like me when i think i am different
I like me when i hear others telling " i am mad"
I like me when i cook food ( new inventions:P)
I like me when i make others eat the food i made
I like me when i feel i am good ( thats a blue moon thing )
I like me when i am able to take photographs
I like me when i talk
I like me when i am loved
I like me when i try to write some thing[ well; quality is not assured yet:) ]
I like me when i am part of gossips ( good one :P)
I like me when i am with friends
I like me when some one comes with argument and i win
I like me when i pass my exams
I like me when i make one feel better compared to me
I like me when i accept my faults
I like me when my work is appreciated



Not the end!!!!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Self Study (Quote II)

"Though we know a particular thing may not happen , then too if we make a forward move ; which implies , our inner soul expect it to happen in a way; which it really may not "

chitra

Self Study (Quote I )


"No persuasion can make one tell their secrets; unless they wish to reveal it "


chitra